HAS A THING FOR COFFEE, LIP PIERCINGS AND FRESHLY PAINTED ROOMS :D

20051230

2 more days till 2oo6 !

and i'm surprised that no one has called me or anything to make plans like go for the countdown together or something. nevermind, i shall sit at home, eat some chips, lie on my sofa put my leg on the table and relax in front of the tv while other people sweat it out and get squeezed by like 843695369 other people and stink. ^^v cheese. hey people, call me up soon lol. HINT HINT. *gets into a fit by winking eyes*

i went to buy my tj uniforms today! yay yay. i had so much fun trying out all the different sizes and all. and i think i'm in love with the uniforms! take note i said uniforms, not polo tees lol. and i like the idea of the drawstring uni, i think it's cool and effective muahaha. now we can all not be like a poser by not tucking in our shirts properly teehee. too bad i have to wait for my skirts to arrive and get altered, which will like take 3 days to a week. T-T until then i guess i'll have to wear my dhs uniform =1 but that's okay, it's the last chance i get to wear it and parade it around the campus i guess muahaha. i can't wait till i get into my new uni and take a photo of it whee! okay going mad already. next please.

not much happened today, just that we went to century square, then to bugis village where i almost fainted and my eyes went disfuntional from all the mess and stuffy environment with the narrow streets and crammy shops that has their goods squeezed like sardines. please, don't try to beat far east lol. it hurts. and i took a video of kelly and yanting trying to use their nose muscles to push their glasses back up lol. yt's a pro, lelly just sucks. but good entertainment heh! XD i crack up whenever i hear lelly's spastic laughter over the phone lol.

oh, deejee's, ziying's and my japanese buddies kaori & miki's christmas cards/greetings came in the mail today, they make me very happy (:

help, i still have no idea what to get for my new year's clothes. i wanna try something different this time hoho (: well, 3/4 more days to a new life in tj! i simply cannot wait :9 meanwhile, i still think hockey's cool. and if i'm not wrong you don't need to know how to skate to join! i think. yayyyyynesssss!

20051228

the great orientation day =1

and to think i was so excited that i could not sleep yesterday. i was waiting sooo long for today. UNTIL, i had second thoughts yesterday night when i saw my class list. i think my class is gonna suck so bad. can't blame me for thinking this way you know, cause i had a fabulous class back in dhs (: 2G and i'm proud of it. maybe i need to give this class some time. but whatever you know, i wish i was in like 1C or 1D or something. and i, am in 1F. FFFFFFFFF. man, i almost lost my mind yesterday okay.

dunno lah, i don't feel like commenting much about my class. it isn't something that i wanna type out, i'd rather say it out by mouth or something. okay just the brief details, i think my class's pretty boring, quiet and blah blah, it's common lah, for newbies like us. just that they're not kinda enthu, and i'm pretty much affected too. suddenly i couldn't get myself to 'high' and get them moving and bring up their spirits. but i'll try. though it's not usually my type to take initiatives and be outgoing. to me, having a good class means a good and fun-filled year. if not, it's like, the whole year ruined? i'd DREAD school everyday. when i was in dhs i'd look forward to seeing all my classmates lol. it was the only thing that made me feel better about dhs. now it's like, rawr, maybe it's just too early to tell. but compared to other classes, it's like we can't really bond much. not noisy, not crazy, not loud enough. how to be a popular (not to mention rowdy) class? i like rowdy classes i don't know why. crazy classes like 2G, i love them like hell (: and my class has a lot of non-chinese, which is i dunno, wierd and strange for me because since primary school i've been in a chinese-based school. 8 years already, and in the schools like 99.9% are chinese. suddenly it's a new environment i have to adapt. not that it's hard, but i dunno how to mix with them? you know what i mean. and it seems like my class is the only class with the most number of non-chinese. the rest of the classes don't have them, they have the PRCs? don't know if that's good or not. so far, everything's been so-so.

i think kelly's class is pretty okay what, got faye there and a few nice people there. don't know why she complaining lol. 1A, 1B (that pai class, looks so much fun to be with! hongyi's class!), 1C and 1D looks not bad to me. 1E also lah. aiyah @_@;; then the orientation was also like just blah. our class isn't loud and outgoing enough, if not our orientation games would go pretty well. we're all just so quiet, even i don't know how to start something without having people staring at you and making you feel awkward. but by the end of the day, i guess things were much better? our class finished a game early so we just sat around, and because it was just boring, i guess we kinda mingled a bit, like sit around and do small talk.

then to kill time, the OGLs decided to have a pole-dancing competition for marks lol. in the lecture theatre. and this TEACHER was judging us lol. i decided to be outgoing for once, and took a great step. i volunteered to pole-dance and limbo in front of the whole academy LOL. along with some other of my class representatives lah. so paiseh i just went up to this girl, (she's the POLE LMAO) and just shake a bit of butt and go down and up again and did the limbo lol. and i thought that it was quite amusing and funny lol. and my good friends were cheering for me! love! <3 hahaha. it's fun to make a fool of myself haha, though i was damn nervous before as i had no idea how to pole dance. then i thought, aiyah, just go there shake a bit and learn from the previous people lah. hahaha. if i got a mask and send me up there with kelly maybe i'll do it more shuang and nicer MUAHAHA LMAO. X) okay lor, embarrassed myself. even hongyi thought i was crazy aha.

omg can you imagine we had orientation for like 12 hours?! and it's like we were running up and down the place, cheering here and there. plus i didn't sleep last night. you can say that i'm so tired right now that i'm almost drunk. right, after this i'll be heading off to bed already and sleep like a pig maybe till about 2pm tomorrow (:

i hope my class opens up, we can be a really fun class if we wanted to you know, you just need a few crazy people to start things off. please don't let me dread coming to school in the mornings when i have such high expectations already and i'm anticipating the re-opening of school =1 please please dont let life in tj suck lol. then again, i made friends! nah you think i'm that socialable meh? is they talk to me first haha. then i slowly tried to blabber blabber blabber my mouth off which usually i can't be bothered to. but oh well, response not very good, maybe know each other a little more then will start to crap ahaha.

4 more days till the next orientation and a start of a whole new (exciting) school life. hmm, hockey sounds cool (:

20051225

MERI KURI (:

and that's japanese in christmas for you people out there, hope you have a nice time making the best out of your life (: みんなメリクリ！:D :D

okay, christmas isn't that bad after all. i'm starting to feel that kind of very subtle tingle in my heart. though i apologise greatly for skipping church on a christmas today and slept in bed instead. i'm really sorry. but yesterday the fact was that i didn't hang out but spent christmas eve's in a church can make up for it right? (: please forgive me, Lord. :D (yeah i know this is sappy but shoo if you have a problem with it dammit)

i remembered the night where i prayed in bed hard, and i decided to gamble and make a deal with God. and i wonder if he ever heard my prayer and whether he'll ever answer it. but whatever it is, i've made up my mind to stay faithful to my promise, and keep all faith i have and believe that he'll answer my prayer one day. even if i have to wait like 5468468438 years, as long as he hears me and answers my prayer. i really hope i won't be waiting in vain (: it means a lot and i already gave my word, made a deal that i'll give up everything for that one thing i ask for. it sounds stupid and like a five year old prayer, but heck, i'm like that. God says as long as we believe and keep our faith strong, he'll make a miracle (: and i'm holding on to it strong.

i feel so happy today, because i got a reply to my christmas greetings that i sent out last night to a few special friends, and this special person was the first to reply me. although i saw the reply coming in, i ignored it, for fear that the reply would be from someone else like my good friend or something and i didn't want to be disappointed or anything, so i decided to wait and check my phone the next morning. today i got 10 new messages (whee i am loved! XD) and i was surprised to find out that he was the first to reply me. and i thought, 'damn i should have checked my phone last night.' you see, things happen when we least expect it to be the way it is. oh well, i am already thankful enough that i got a reply, but his reply was so happy (he was out last night) and he was talking like nothing was bothering him and not a tinge of awkwardness was in sms, it's like the messages in the old days just minus the hearts and stuff. we sent a few more smses to each other, before i decided not to talk to him anymore. not that i wanna ignore it, but it's that wierd feeling that i have. i very badly don't want him to stop talking to me, but yet i'm scared that he will stop so i decided to stop instead. it's wierd you know, but i can't deny that i'm a coward. in fact, i really wish he'd keep talking but then i realised that maybe i don't really matter much anymore and i'd be bothering him, so i decided to cut off the talk abruptly. i don't want to feel dejected if i continue talking like normally and he suddenly shuts up. it just means alot. the whole of yesterday i was debating on whether i should send him a christmas greeting or not, and what sort of reply i would get. after all, the times i saw him on teacher's day back in school, the time i bumped into him at orchard, i was already mentally prepared even if i didn't get a reply. it just means alot to me, alot alot. i guess that's why i was so moody yesterday =1 but still, i'm happy he replied, but sad when i think of the other things. maybe he's spending his perfect christmas talking on the phone late into the night with his girl now. maybe i'm just a normal friend already. i just hate it. arrgghhhh.

i know i can't forget this special boy, not even forever. and to me he's still so perfect.

DAMMIT. MERRY CHRISTMAS KTHXBYE.
(and for those less fortuante people out there, my heart goes out to you for being so strong and not crumpling through the tough times you have to cope with. you're far stronger than a wimp like me so keep the fire in your hearts burning, and may God bless you unconditionally.)

20051224

CHRISTMAS ! :D

okay, tonight's the eve, and in about37 minutes time it'll be christmas yay :3 christmas is one of my favourite holidays cause i absolutely love christmas songs, the carolling and the festive mood of it all. especially when dad was driving in the car and we passed through orchard road, i was er touched to see the chrstmas lights and so many people walking around and all. it's the holiday that i've most anticipated for, and it's finally here.

unfortunately, it's my saddest christmas. not that i'm upset about anything but i'm just feeling down. so down that i was really quiet today. even my aunt could sense it, i wasn't smiling much. and i very well know the reason behind it all as to why i feel like this. (no it's not pms for goodness sake)

suddenly, i'm not really in the mood to celebrate christmas anymore.

_|_ take this, You. i wonder where are you now and what are you doing, but it's not like it's supposed to matter anymore.

okay, i feel like blogging something special for christmas aye. therefore, i present you MY TOP TEN LIST OF DISLIKES! (: rawr.

1. i dislike myself.
(no, actually i HATE myself in fact. and it's so damn true, it's number one on my list hee.)

2. i dislike broken promises or when people lie.
(yes i absolutely cannot stand that. i hate it when people do not mean what they say. and they just automactically get recorded in my black book.)

3. i dislike it when people see me cry.
(yeah i don't know why but i just don't like it okay.)

4. i dislike third parties.
(the kind who thinks that coming between someone else's relationship and try to 'fight for who they love'. bullshit okay. if that person's taken, stay away for good cause you ain't like people to mess with yours _|_)

5. i dislike it when people think i'm easy to cheat and try to play me.
(so wrong people.)

6. i dislike people who can brush off the things and people that once meant/still means something important to them all so easily.
(just, HOW COULD THEY?!)

7. i dislike smoking and the people who smokes especially in areas where there are many people.
(smoke somewhere else where there's alot of open air to pollute or in a smoking area.)

8. i dislike people who bump into me especially in crowded areas.
(i know i'm short but watch it dammit.)

9. i dislike mirrors.
(they're freaky and i don't like staring into them unless i have to.)

10. i dislike, this girl ~~in malaysia~~.
(in fact, HATE. the only person so far that i think i'll maintain this grudge with. if i ever see her i probably might just stab her with anything sharp i can get my hands on.)

and YEAH, there's a hidden meaning behind all of this. just don't try to guess cause i don't wanna look ugly.

and there i leave you. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND GOD BLESS, EVERYONE! (: much loves <3

20051220

spammeth of the retards x)

shirleen and i looking retro :D looks like we just zoinked in from your mama's timezone nyahaha XD

and then we tried some sunglasses which were being sold on the streets of orchard! that's shirleen, me and kelly. i am actually in <3love<3 with my sunglasses yo. they're selling it at 2 for $15! cheap but i can't buy it 'cause i won't be able to see properly unless i wear contacts or something T-T boo.

and then we fooled around. did stuff like, pushing some cartwheel? O_o;;

shirleen's purple; yahan's white; i'm black, kelly's shoe. at paragon wasting time when we were waiting for dhs SE performance to start lol.

wow and we became part of the ~~egyptian~~mongolian art & culture team! englithening you and teaching you need to know about traditional dance and how to spazz around and embarrass yourself in public (: cheers!

then we all decided to buy some handmade slippers but had a hard time deciding which design, size and colour to buy. ah, the fickle-minded fussy little mofos.

and that's kelly's shoe with mine! while taking a rest we had nothing better to do, really.

and then i came across this bear in one of the shops. i thought the words on the bear was amusing so i quickly snapped a shot of it. ain't it sweet! :3

and now i bring you to the end of the picture spams. (:

20051219

everyone loves starfucks coffee (:

MUAHAHA. i had a wonderful day nanana! XD went out with shirleen, yahan and kelly today to orchard. we decided to go LADY today (: skirts, totes and pretty slippers and all x) man, i've never felt so good while shopping lol. feels like i'm all grown up yo~ no wonder they say shopping makes a girl happy. IT IS INDEED HALLELUJAH! i think i'm addicted to shopping <3 hohoho but it's sin, i need to repent.

had lunch then walked around cineleisure. went into a nike shop and played 'soccer' lol. that kind where it's in a table and you spin rods around to move the players and kick the ball around. apparently i tried asking around but no one knows what that game was called. and we were playing like retards! i even shot the ball into my own goal lah. ><" nevermind? it was pure fun lol.

and then we went to the arcade! omfg i miss arcade-ing lol. the four of us played hand hockey that puck thing, and we also played time crisis! omfg TIME CRISIS I REPEAT! it's my first time but it was so much fun! we did the link players game and the four of us took turns to shoot until about area 3 then we decided to stop lol. okay, my shooting is bad and my hand-leg coordination sucks butt lah. but it's addicting lol, no wonder my senior can finish the whole game setting a new high score without losing even one life man. that's the real pro. but i guess he had to 'invest' a lot of money to train up to that standard lol. i wanna play time crisis 2 again someday whee! (:

then we proceeded to take spastic pictures. we tried to take all kinds of pictures at all kinds of places lol. maybe i'll post them up when i get them from yahan later. and and and! we saw DHS string ensemble perform christmas songs outside paragon! omg omg i don't know why but it was touching, and i felt so proud that i was standing there and watching them perform! it's like an overwhelming feeling of wanting to rush up to every one watching and tell them that it's my school that's performing lol. wierd eh. but oh wells. sidetracking a bit, i ate my favourite lemon flavour ice cream at the paragon. =1 YUM :3

wait, then i can't think of what else we did. blah we just walked around and took pictures like nobody's business. embarrassed ourselves in public too lol bwahaha. but it's okay, it's been a long time since i had so much fun being a moron in public yo.

ooh and we bought pretty handmade slippers for $7.90! i bought one which matched the colours of my toenails hehe. i also bought a top from hula & co (: pretty pretty. i love the clothes there muahaha. then me and kelly saw this small booth which sold some screwed up logo tees lol. with labels like starfucks coffee, pe*is lemon and cocka cola LMAO. bah, all the shopping mades me feel accomplished! i shall start saving when school reopens and look forward to chinese new year lol.

GIVE ME CHRISTMAS BABY! (:

20051216

HOME, TADAIMAA ! (:

yessu people i'm back! NANANA anyone missed me? XD okay, doubt so. *hides* 8D

i just came back from my badminton chalet, and it feels so damn great to be home! where i have my bed, my tv, my computer, my bears and blah, EVERYTHING! nothing's better than some home-cooked food, a nice hot bath, then a good night's sleep under the blankets (: it's funny because it seems like everything i go for a chalet and i'm away from home for a few days, i end up missing it so damn badly and appreciate everything that i've got :D ima lock myself up at home for a few days YOH! XD for now, i love my dad and my mom, and i shall not hate this family nor run away from home, until i change my mind LOL. complicated humans, only missing the water when it's gone lmao.

first day! i met up with kelly, and brought my SUPER DUPER UBER heavy bag with me. looked like i brought half my house along x) then went to whitesands, and went to buy some snacks for the chalet in the supermarket. i was afraid that i would have my gastrics acting up again and i didn't want it to ruin the whole fun so i decided that it was the best thing to do, so that i could pop and chew something every few hours so that i wouldn't have gastrics. and TADAA! i did have a good time and my gastrics hardly affected my mood (: see, clever what XD went to the chalet, 'chop' the room and beds, then played cards, mahjong, and all that shit. guys played gamecube blah, resident evil and drooled at hot ada =1

at night we had the barbeque, nothing special, just the usuals. more people came at night and at nine we all sat down to watch rainbow connection that stupid show lol. watching it disgusts me because it's so fake but i just watch it because of the people in there XD like how the two sworn sisters bitch fight and stuff lol. around midnight we played captain's ball! it's been a long time since we did it as a team, about one and a half years i think. sweat alot and had fun till about one or two hours after midnight, before queueing up for the toilet and bathe. then stayed up, ate and muched and played more mahjong till about four plus and i realised that i was tired and really had to sleep. so i headed upstairs, and tried to squeeze in, but i was sleeping like a corpse, perfectly straight because there was like five people on the beds in awkward positions. but halfway through the night, i was ROBBED! OH THE HORROR! i was robbed of my space and blanket and it was friggin' cold! like the blanket was of no use and it had HOLES in it, i was freezing with the aircon and fans on at full blast lmao. gawd save me i felt really like a corpse going to decompose any moment. couldn't tahan anymore, so i went downstairs. it was only seven plus in the morning nia. and it was even colder downstairs had to wrap myself with the sleeping bags and sit next to an open window lol. DAMN. AND I WAS TIRED.

oh well, couldn't tahan again, i just took the sleeping bag and went upstairs and slept on the floor till about twelve plus. hahaha and kelly said she wanted to eat MCDONALDS BREAKFAST. bock looked at her and told her 'HELLO? BREAKFAST? 1230 ALREADY EAT LUNCH LAH' LMAO. well, we decided to go tampines to watch a movie and have lunch instead. watched 'PERHAPS LOVE', and i cried like buckets and buckets of tears. the whole thing was like playing with my emotions and i cried whenever the music started playing and less then one minute after i finished wiping my tears and moved on with the show, the music came on again and i cried again, and it went like that throughout the whole show argh. i'm an emo sappy freak lah. and i was the only one who cried till my eyes were swollen =1 the rest were just okay with it. hello? i thought it was an awesome movie with beautiful scenes and no one cried even at the touching parts. and to think that agnes could sleep in the movie and kelly could feel hungry.

me: *cries non stop* *movie has a shot of an ebay advertisement poster*
kelly: EH LOOK EBAY DOT COM! HAHA.
me: <_<;; (wah lao like that also can laugh. it's not the main point lol!)
*another touching part; i'm too busy crying*
kelly: *leans over and whispers* hey i realised that i'm damn hungry leh! this morning only eat cereal until now, super hungry!
me: ><" (rawr! hello i'm crying can?)

LOL. yes like that. then ate and came back for a barbeque, and played captain ball through midnight, this time the bigger seniors came to play too. almost like 40+ people playing on court? attracted some attention from other chalets too, they all went like 'YES!' when one team scored lol. badminton has like the best captain ball players ever man. i stand there like for decoration only. the seniors can really solo the whole game woi. *bows* then the the girls headed to the room to play bear and hunter. haven't played that game in such a long time! (: oh well, but i got sleepy and slept instead. ON THE BED THIS TIME! yeah the bed feels good lol.

woke up at about 10 plus, then headed to mcdonalds to have BREAKFAST this time round lol. came back and slept some more till about 3 then just hung outside the garden listening to cherie's mp3 and watch kelly vandalise the floor with charcoal lol. well then about 13 of us decided to go watch king kong at tampines, the 1040pm show, and it's about 3 hours long lol. went to eat dinner then tried to go safra to bowl but no lanes were available so we had to go all the way back and ended up in the arcades and watch bernerd finish the whole game of time crisis. dang he's good he got a high score! watched my seniors play daytona and other games till it was time to go in lol. we drew the tickets to see who we were to sit with, oh well then i swapped tickets so i was next to kelly lol. king kong is a pretty nice show, but it was a bit too long lol. cried at the end, it was touching. after that, dad fetched me and kelly back to chalet and we went home lol. THE END!

it was a fun chalet but i'm just glad to be home lol. in fact so glad that i decided to do housework! lol omfg it's a miracle. i only do housework when i'm depressed or a bit out of my mind but YES, i made my bed, packed my bags and stuff, washed my clothes, washed the dishes, and cooked myself some MISO SOUP! yeah baby, housewife in the making lol. whatever lah, after a few days i'll be back to normal and just slack around at home like a lazy pig (:

HOHOHO, right now, i'm all ready and anticipating christmas and set for school! NANANA! :D

20051212

A PLACE FOR MY HEAD

A broken spirit walks.

She shuffles her feet through the soft sand that glistened under the sun. They sparkled together with clear golden waters like thousands of diamonds that made up the shore. The sky was splashed with red and orange hues of the setting sun in the summer.

Her soul was drained. The sun seemed to have drawn everything out of her like how each day takes a bit of her energy away.

She looks to the water. The waves lapped gently at her feet rhythmically. They rush in and then as quickly as it came, it receded, washing away some sand together with it. She feels her feet sink slightly into the damp sand.

The ocean beyond stretched across from the horizon to where her feet lay. The clear water’s ripples made it look like a golden silk cloth spreading out far and wide, constantly moving ever so slightly. It shimmered and shined under the sunlight. It looked so peaceful and calm on its own, and it had nothing to worry about.

She wanted to be just like the ocean, she wanted to be free. She didn’t want to be tangled up in her own emotional mess anymore. She wanted to be part of the water, and flow freely.

Taking small steps, little by little she walks towards the ocean, till the water reached her knees.

“Where do you think you’re going, my child?” someone behind her spoke.
She turned. It was the King. He had no crown, and was dressed simply in pure white linen cloth. He was relaxing under a palm tree. How come she hadn’t noticed him before? She turned back to the waters.

“I’m tired,” she said softly.

“Well then come sit by my side and take a rest, my young one,” He spoke ever so gently, his voice overflowing with compassion. He spread his arms out to receive her.

She walks slowly back up shore and sits in his arms. People call him the Father, for he though a sovereign King who took great care of his people, he also drew people closer to him and feed them like any father would to his children. He took those broken souls under his wing and cared for them. His face was beautiful, and his deep soulful eyes bore kindness, forgiveness and security. In his arms, she felt stable and protected in his support.

“Will I be able to find you here next time?” she asked.

“Anytime,” he answered, cradling her like a baby. “You’ve been through much lately, little one. It’s time for a rest for tomorrow will be another draining day. You’ll need the energy if you want to hold out,” He softly hummed a song, cooing her to sleep.

The broken spirit, was exhausted, and slowly felt her eyes close in on her before she fell into a comforting warm darkness, the first she’s had in a long time.

The setting sun slowly inched itself below the horizon.

20051208

(!!!) spams of cam-whoring (:

hello hello (: the lack of update the last few days were due to the fact that i was out sinning or at home sinning :D you see, i either go out and waste away precious money (that i saved so hard) or i stay at home and waste precious time, time that could be used for some other things that are WAY more productive. but knowing the charlene who never was practical in the first place and loves to do whatever she likes according to her mood, oh well then it ends up with WASTING $KA-CHINGS$ AND TICK TOCKS yes? (: right. *checks the time on the computer screen*

HOLY SHIT TODAY IS A THURSDAY?! O________O;;

wtf and i thought it was wednesday. i sinned so much, far beyond what i expected. i need to repent soon T-T

okay, so let me think, what productive things did i do on monday. hmm, NO I CAN'T MOZAFACKING REMEMBER WHAT I DID ON MONDAY THIS SUCKS! okay what about tuesday? i THINK i stayed home the whole day and watched a hell lot of tv and spent like 36843684 hours painting my fuggly nails? hah. (:

no, the hand looks ghostly because of the darn camera thank you.

yah and then wednesday? i went out with kelly to orchard. sinned. bought a bag and a top. pretty happy with it but i think ima need more tops? i wanna go to hula & co. to get some XD they say that shopping makes a girl happy. very very true, because iono why, but i get so happy when i see the new things. window shopping is torturing haha. but feeling broke is as torturing too x) oh well, there's just so many things i want this christmas! i really slogged hard this whole year, barely buying anything for myself just rushing around trying to keep up with the work and time, so ima really pamper myself this holidays. that's a valid reason for spending the cash right? (:

let's see, and today! i stayed at home, blasted some music and doodled some junk. no i'm kidding it's my MOZAFACKING MASTERPIECE YO! XD HOLLER~! hah. i spent like two hours on the whole thing trying to make it look decent. hey, and i applied my sec one art teacher's (what's her name again? mdm kong?) methods of using negative spaces and measuring the lengths and applying the scales. whatever shit i'm talking about here if you can understand. i shall now give you the spammeth of my masterpiece VOILA!

TAADAA! I PRESENT YOU ZEE MASTERPIECE OF THE DAY! :D *shines* 100% hand drawn if you're thinking otherwise.
a big effort i made in trying my best to make it look identical hoho.
this creation was done in honour of, *ahem* MACHI ! (:
and now presenting zee oh-so-brilliant artist with nothing better to do in the day! :D *throws confetti*
and maybe you should take a closer look and read it carefully in case she becomes famous soon. AHAH KIDDING LMAO XD
last of all, TEH INSPIRATION! much loves to Machi and (the cute, adorable, hot etcetc.) andrew & nicky in there! 我爱周星星！:D

click on the pictures to view in 100% actual size.
disclaimer: ALL MINE. steal and i'll crush you like a piece of paper and do origami on you and turn you into a frog. KTHXBYE.

20051204

DAAAAMMNN !

I just had my JLPT. omg i don't know how well i'll do for this but i hope it'll be a decent mark, (please please be above average). The exam wasn't as hard as the standard of my japanese exam at the language centre and not as tough and challenging and indirect, but because of the difference in the syllabus i guess there were some things that i couldn't answer as i haven't learnt. i studied like some mad person for this, while others just took it easily. oh well, that's just me, i'm a mozafacking nerdy mofo when it comes to japanese 8D the listening scared the shit out of me. i don't have high hopes for it as i know i made a few mozafacking mistakes argh! i wrote the correct answer but changed it to the wrong one later. knn. but halfway through the exam, i began to realised that i wasn't doing the test according to what's right and what's wrong, but i did according to my own intincts. (!!!) this sometimes happen to me during an exam when i start to become oblivious to the correct and wrong (techinically) and start to lurk in the grey areas. i just write an answer which my intincts tell me to and what i FEEL sounds/looks/is correct which is MOZAFACKING DANGEROUS AND RISKY (and downright dumb)! some stupid person i am yessu. oh well, gotta wait till march for the results! i can't wait actually! HAHAHA. :D

and i feel so childish. SO SO MOZAFACKING CHILDISH. screeewwww me. i realised that i bought machi's album apart from the reasons that i think nicky is so cute and pinchable and likeable, and that machi makes kick-ass hip hop music, but also for a really really stupid reason that couldn't get anything sillier than this. *coughcough* 'cause andrew (machi didi) reminds me of a certain person. so much so that i've become obssessed. gawd i think i have some problems with my brain but yes, i can become very obsessive at times. to the point that i start to lie to myself that i think that andrew is that person and to tell myself that to obssess over that person is okay because we don't know each other. i lie to myself to make myself feel better and that kinda thing, and it all starts when my dreams and fantasies start to take control of reality. my mind is just so wrong and fkdup. someone tell me to quick GETOVERIT. this is SO unhealthy i gotta get out of it quick.

whatever it is, i <3 Machi, for now. (: 我爱周星星! HAHAHA. that mv cracks me up everytime. x)

oh yes, my wish to santa this christmas. i hope he kills her, period. _|_ YES I AM A LUNATIC =1

horoscope; birthday reading

Rising Sign is in 15 Degrees Taurus
Calm and deliberate, you hate to move quickly or act hastily. Very practical, every effort must count or you can't be bothered. Patient, persistent and steady, but very stubborn -- you can't be pushed or pressured into anything. You seem outwardly self-assured because you tend to repress your inner tension and turmoil. You exude an earthy warmth, friendliness and charm. You demand comfortable surroundings and appreciate the good life. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent. At times, you are lazy and difficult to motivate. Overcoming inertia is a problem for you and, because you are not by nature a self-starter, it is often necessary for you to receive stimuli from others in order to get moving.

Sun is in 00 Degrees Pisces.
Extremely sensitive and emotional, you absorb the emotions of others (whether positive or negative) like a sponge. Emotionally vulnerable, you are easily upset and tend to cry readily. You are at your best when you can structure your environment in such a way that you are surrounded by positive, upbeat people. You are very helpful and understanding of the needs of others. Indeed, at times this can be a disadvantage, because you can be a sucker for anyone who needs help. Shy, dreamy, romantic in nature, you delight in retreating into your private fantasy world. Just be careful that you do not get lost in it! Trust your intuitions -- you may be quite psychic.

Moon is in 24 Degrees Aries.
High-spirited and courageous, you are a fighter when your emotions are aroused. The degree of force and drive that you can bring to any effort sometimes surprises others. You have hair-trigger reactions to specific stimuli and tend to "let it all hang out." You sometimes act before you think and do things on the spur of the moment, and that sometimes gets you into trouble. Your moods change quickly -- you have quite a temper, but you don't hold grudges. Very independent, with an extremely strong and forceful personality, you are known for being impulsive, careless, reckless, foolhardy, rash and daring.

Mercury is in 21 Degrees Aquarius.
You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things.

Venus is in 26 Degrees Pisces.
You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete.

Mars is in 09 Degrees Gemini.
Your energies get turned on quickly whenever anything interests you. But you have a very short attention span and it is difficult for you to complete tasks because something else more interesting always seems to be beckoning. You love to debate and argue, usually in a spirit of friendly disagreement. But watch out that you do not get too overly aggressive or antagonistic or others will be quick to take offense where none may have really been intended. You need to be in constant physical motion -- sports or daily exercise is a must for you if you are to feel fit and healthy.

Jupiter is in 05 Degrees Leo.
You must be proud of all that you do in order to grow and develop. You enjoy being totally honest and aboveboard and you revel in the admiration and respect you receive from others due to your high- minded, upright way of life. Make sure, though, that your natural tendency to boast and show off is based on your actual accomplishments. Don't fall prey to self-exaggeration or arrogance. You truly do like outrageous spectacles and grand jolly times and will go out of your way to make them a reality.

Saturn is in 01 Degrees Aquarius.
Your personal sense of values is a reflection of the value structures of your peer group and of those you respect and admire. Try to be more critical in your acceptance of these values -- you tend to prejudge the abilities of those you trust and then follow what they say blindly. Basically very conservative, you prefer orderly, systematic changes and fear doing things rashly or impulsively. Ideas and philosophies must have some sort of immediately realizable, utilitarian function in order for you to pay any attention to them.

Uranus is in 12 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your peer group as well, seek out practical solutions to a changing society's attitudes to customs, traditions and authority structures. Your logical and orderly manner of dealing with these matters will result in permanent and carefully planned, but sweeping, reforms.

Neptune is in 15 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 20 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 27 Degrees Capricorn.
You rarely get involved closely with anyone unless he or she has something specific and practical to offer you. You tend to be "all business" when it comes to dealing with others. You're usually so intently focused on a particular goal that you rarely have time for social niceties or casual fellowship. But you can definitely be counted on by others to get things done. When you say that you'll do something, you do it. As such, you're a valuable member of any team situation and will probably rise to a position of leadership within the group. Your trustworthiness and sense of responsibility are unquestioned. But do try to avoid the temptation to "use" others to reach your goals -- they might come to resent you.

not bad (: let's just be honest about it ya? by far one of the most accurate. kyoko gave me a link to this but i forgot about it lol. but i didn't really understand the last part =1

20051201

chicken little ! (:

today qian, yt, lelly & i went to watch chicken little! gawd it was such a spastic and funny show i loved it to bits! disgustingly cute x) i feel like watching it again! hurhur :D but er, it was kinda similar to WAR OF THE WORLDS (DHDFHDFHFDH! ><") well, only the alien part. the alien parts was almost like the cartoon version of the WotW's aliens. bwahaha oh well, shall chuck that aside, i don't wanna be reminded of the time when i went to watch it =1 other than that, it was hilarious. RUNT the pig was so cute, and so was the FISH out of the water. oh yes, not to forget that furball alien baby x) the best part has to be when RUNT sang a spice girl's song. OMFG I LAUGHED TILL I ALMOST PEE-ED IN MY PANTS. oh yes, runt also went like "pee pee pee pee pee.." which reminded me of guorui and his stupid "pee demon" thing x) gawd it was a fabulous movie i wanna watch it again! :D

then went to take neoprints. it's been a long time since we four took some together (: it turned out pretty good, not very fab but still nice (: (lack of practice what lol) yay i get to keep them for momentos! they're so precious to me, i feel like sticking them all over my phone lol. x)

and YAYNESS. i no longer have to be on medication anymore! medication and taking pills and tablet sucks. to the core. i'm glad the tablets are cut now, i knew that they would never work from the start! waste my efforts, all those times when i had to down it all and put up with the bitterness. PILLS ARE EVIL. i hope with the new doctor thing's will change for the better now (:

now back to more japanese studying. GAWD SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO MUG.

*mustdowell!* >:[